Lost Identity with Alzheimer's

My Instagram group had a prompt word of "stillness", and it got me thinking. I have often almost heard the electrical current buzz emanating from myself as my mind works overtime almost to the point of burnout. Afraid to stop, afraid that if I do my brain will cease to work. This is the Alzheimer’s dilemma. I am terrified of losing my identity, afraid that if I allow quiet, I might never emerge from that space again. I feel that overload, a frenzy that I’m unable to control or stop.

Perhaps that is exactly why this prompt spoke to me. Maybe stillness isn't the enemy. Maybe beneath all the mental noise there is a quieter place where fear loosens its grip and peace can finally be heard.

“To know yourself as the Being underneath the thinker, the stillness underneath the mental noise, the love and joy underneath the pain, is freedom, salvation, enlightenment” - Eckhart Tolle

This, below, was a response from one who follows me:

Comment and reply from Instagram.

And, that's the truth. Family and friends just don't want to hear what you really feel for the most part. They want you to pretend everything is fine. It makes it all

easier for them. (Although I do have one family member who "gets" it and allows me venting space safely.)

If you prefer, the original post is here.

But, on a lighter note: My local candle shop that carries my work has reordered some of the Intention Balls. That key chain sold in one day! I don't make much but it does pay for things that I would not ordinarily buy for myself.

Witch's or Intention Balls

Wood Carving Key Chain