What To Do Today When You Have Alzheimer's

I do have a bit of a problem remembering what it was I need/want to do. I have such grand plans but, at the end of the day, I seem to have missed doing them.

I love journals. I have dozens of them all begun with good intentions. I love getting them, picking out just the right pen, selecting a topic to include and start with the enthusiasm of a child with an ice cream cone. Then it just gets forgotten. I got new strings for my guitar, got out all my books, practiced and played for a couple of days and now it sits in the corner covered with dust. I set up my keyboard. Moved furniture to do so. Ordered new books, practiced devotedly for a few days and now, like the guitar, it sits collecting dust. My knitting is in a bag untouched for months, my carvings sit wondering if I will ever return. Card making supplies contain things that I don't even remember what they are for. My weaving loom, taking up quite a bit of real estate is ignored.

Is it because each time I pull something out I have to relearn how to do it? Things that were easy, things that didn't require thought are now often difficult. Am I afraid that if I try to play my guitar that I will have forgotten what I relearned yesterday? How many times do I have to look up how to do a certain simple embroidery stitch?

This is what AI has to say about the whole issue: "Follow-through difficulties in Alzheimer's arise from brain damage affecting memory, planning, and task execution, particularly in the middle stages. Patients may forget steps, struggle with dressing or bathing, lose track of time, or become repetitive."

And yet each day with joy in my heart I begin some new journey. I will learn something new today and the past joys are again forgotten. There must be some significance to this but I am clueless. Is it the Alzheimer's? I am not positive. I've always been one to be excited to learn new things and expand my horizons but maybe not to this extent. That could be part of what Alzheimer's does, takes a trait and amplifies it? (Again, asking AI I got this: "Yes, Alzheimer's disease frequently amplifies existing personality traits, while also causing new, often difficult behaviors. As brain cells die, inhibitions decrease, causing mild traits to become extreme. For example, a mildly anxious person may become fearful, or a thrifty person may become miserly, as personality shifts or exaggerates."

New books have been ordered, more classes online signed up for.... will I read them or do them? Or, will they wind up in the piles of unread, unfinished classes?

Alzheimer's is hard to deal with. Nobody can see what I'm feeling. Everyone thinks I'm okay. Well, I'm not. Not always anyway. I'm a good faker though so not to worry. Not your problem. Not a problem for me either really, just the way my days flow. I have adjusted and try not t to beat myself up over projects unfinished. I'm happy and if you think about it, how many people actually are?

It's nice to have a venting place especially since I know that hardly anyone even reads this. This morning I was greeted by AI on this blog. AI seems to be everywhere but even AI can't get this to show up on search engines, LOL!

On a lighter note, here's some photos of things I actually did this week. I got a class for watercolors and used Procreate instead:

Images used from a watercolor class from Dear Ann